My mind sends me on all sorts of vacations

December 29, 2007 - Saturday

Isn't it amazing what you end up thinking when you try not to think? This point was brought up in a book I just finished and I couldn't agree more. Her mind was brought to the question: If you had to choose any miracle in the Bible to happen to you, which would it be? She settled on rising from the dead, because walking on water isn't all that great and the fish and loaves didn't sound that appetizing. I think the whole water into wine thing is right up my alley. Now there's a shocker!

I've been trying to shut my brain off for as long as I can remember. It is almost impossible for me to not be making lists of things to do and get accomplished. Wasted time to me is tragic. And while this may sometimes work to my advantage, I find there are times I don't enjoy what is going on right in front of me because I'm too busy planning what I'm going to do later. Even right now as I am blogging I have two different computers doing other things to get the most out of my time. Is this all really necessary?

I think that being busy helps you to not really think about things, especially those you want to ignore. Keeping ourselves occupied and spinning the wheel is only fueling the inevitable breakdowns we all will have. The longer we ignore these dark, ominous clouds, the more serious the storm becomes.

Does this mean that we have to stop being busy and move back to something simple? I can't imagine what I would do if I didn't have two jobs and tons of projects on the to-do list. I know that I would just find another way to occupy my time. It's in my nature. I can't sit around and do nothing. Even when I have a "lazy day" I will have at least two or three little things crossed off my lists. I just can't leave it until tomorrow. How does one cure this ailment? How does one shift their nature? I don't think it's possible.